All That Glitters...
I am super struggling with the whole "Christmas" thing this year. I mean, I am trying... but I'm dragging myself by the eyelashes. The house is decorated. The shopping is nearing an end. My house is not overly clean... nor is it going to be... and I just don't care. I have no baking done, but that part isn't unusual. I am approaching as ready as I'm planning to get... but there is no love in it for me this year. Zip. Zero. Zilch. I'm normally stressed out for one reason or another, but I don't even feel that much excitement this year. I'm just numb. Work isn't helping. It is so dead in there, I literally would scrub the floor for something to do. I wrapped my boss' Christmas gifts again this year. It further demeans me, but I seriously needed something to do. It wears me out... not having any purpose. Drains my spirit. It's likely past time for me to move on... I just